Gettin' that feelin' again...
Sep. 30th, 2003 08:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cyriljackalI'm lazy. To anyone but the upper management, I'd admit it. But when someone is scheduled for 40 hours a week, so as to releive someone who's been there over five hours alone, doesn't show up for another two hours, and repeatedly do it, and not get punished... Hey. I have to ask, why don't I get to screw off that bad too and still get paid? Our new dude is supposed to have a 40 hour week just like me, come in at 1:30 for late shift just like me, but doesn't.
I'm getting the feeling that somehow I'm the most responsible overall again and I hate that feeling... Because I don't want responsibility. So far it seems my sense of responsibility is what gets me in most of my trouble, or gets me most of my dismissals in life.
I never was set out to constantly be late for work, or shrug off. I tend to do illegal sketching once a month at work, or to jot down funny ideas now, which helps me cope, But mostly everyone thinks of me (or so I beleive) as a decent guy.
I'm being very critical of people I think are laze-a-bouts or could do better and I'm sure I'm just as bad, but I generally hold the people I know, and work with, up to higher standards than the 'anything-is-ok' standard. I want them to be smart, I want them to be sucuessful! Seems some people are destined to do dumb things, or have tragedy befall them at every turn.
I just hope I don't live my life in as predictable as a circle as many other people I see do.
God, Imagine me running anything. The horror.
We cleaned... god It's so much better in here clean. You actually want to come home and be there instead of finding every reason not to be. The bedroom still has a tangle of every kind of imaginable clothing on the floor and in the baskets, but I'm chipping away at that at this very moment too.
Nice quiet place.
I'm getting the feeling that somehow I'm the most responsible overall again and I hate that feeling... Because I don't want responsibility. So far it seems my sense of responsibility is what gets me in most of my trouble, or gets me most of my dismissals in life.
I never was set out to constantly be late for work, or shrug off. I tend to do illegal sketching once a month at work, or to jot down funny ideas now, which helps me cope, But mostly everyone thinks of me (or so I beleive) as a decent guy.
I'm being very critical of people I think are laze-a-bouts or could do better and I'm sure I'm just as bad, but I generally hold the people I know, and work with, up to higher standards than the 'anything-is-ok' standard. I want them to be smart, I want them to be sucuessful! Seems some people are destined to do dumb things, or have tragedy befall them at every turn.
I just hope I don't live my life in as predictable as a circle as many other people I see do.
God, Imagine me running anything. The horror.
We cleaned... god It's so much better in here clean. You actually want to come home and be there instead of finding every reason not to be. The bedroom still has a tangle of every kind of imaginable clothing on the floor and in the baskets, but I'm chipping away at that at this very moment too.
Nice quiet place.
