I was going to write a big con report, but my scattered brain just can't recreate my thoughts. It's being done in parts, and middle to end as things come back to me. I don't even know if everything will be there. I'll just have to lay out what I can and hope it reminds me in the future just what I'm talking about and that anyone who reads it can understand it. I'm going to miss a lot, disjoint even more, but I'm not the only one who felt the good feelings about this all. Just look at what everyone else has been saying.
Shortwave's fursuit is one of the cutest things possible. I die a little inside every time I see it from cute-radiation.
Saw Kristy and Jessie around, and Bennie doing registration, and Sue who did a great badge for me. Finally after all these years I decided not to be shy about asking if she could do something for me, and got such a great badge from her. I've always had a problem asking people for anything, and something so personal as a peice of art especially. I have to say, that for a long while I was sad, and even pretty mad that they all left. Really when they left they took a big part of my life. Half of it. But even though it's not something they need to be forgiven for, I do. I just miss some of the old things as they were. I miss Mondays. But I loved seeing them all just for as much as I did. Maybe they didn't realize just how special they were to me and maybe never will.
Thinking on the new group that showed up afterwards, and began watching Heroes together with Gideon, Astor, Kitana and Stranger, Roxikat, and Saberwing and sometimes even Kamber. I wish I saw them all more and wasn't so shy to ask to spend more time with any or all of them. I'm always afraid I'm intruding even though I need friends as much as anyone.
Spoke to Magnus, And yeah we can and will, but things will still never be as good as they used to be. But forgiveness is given.
Oh my god, I saw Selkit Diller too from Second Life. Shackled art books bound in leather and steel. You know, it only makes jackals want to see what's inside more. What a mystery fur you are, even when standing in front of someone.
Arc, Arc, Arc. What a spunky jackal you are. Leading your band of miscreants and jackalworshippers all over the con. I'm glad you're around. I can still see your eyes in my mind.
Had some good time to talk to Rattus at Tonic across the street from the hotel. I had wanted to say more but the one thing I think you need to know is that the biggest, worst thing is that you don't drop your asshole persona and just be the great guy you showed me you were, with honest real feelings about a future you're building and the concerns you have fitting into that future. And also what relationships you currently have and need to think over. Don't be a liar. It's only to yourself.
Silver, I've watched you change over the years. What changes, eh blondie? But no seriously, you're years beyond what you used to be, maybe finally entering into those college years age that you said you were. Here's to more years. And miles to go before you sleep.
And then we have what has come to be our "little family".
Littlewolf and Chii, Karyuu and Kale, Akina, Sasha, Tigra, Tiggy, Skippy, Nataku, Wag!, Silent, Icepaws, Frank, Soma and Lupine and more...
And the distant but remembered Wolf J, whose house and ghost, to me will always reside near Ambler.
A con about friends and family, and about forgiveness.
Most of all one about who we are and where we come from.
On to the future.
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