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[cyriljackal]

He Wishes for the Cloths of Heaven

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

-W.B.Yeates

Yaknow, I'm watching the Crow and thinking about how people go away and sometimes you never see them again. If they die or if they just...leave. Worst thing ever in my sphere of hell is to be alone. That's my personal pain. The fear of lonliness. Even though it will never happen, I have these ideas of the perfect setup of my life and who will be around to share it. It's a complex thing and it's all my friends. It's having all of them around me.
I'm not like others who can just never see someone again. Even the most important ones seem able to cut loose and spin free with ... no care about who they leave behind.
I don't really want to leave anyone ever. Fuck.
Anyway, I been thinking about explaing some of my philosphies. Yah lots say I'm bleak, but I think I'm the most realistic. I don't have magic and fairies to explain stuff. Hell, I even beleive that all that is is just a hologram. Electomagnetic illusion that we perceive to be reality.
More science than sorcery.
But even I beleive I can be wrong.
One thing I am often is wrong, says I.
Yeah maybe I'll say what told to Jessie. Tomorrow.

Comments

[nexrad.livejournal.com]

I'm curious in how this plays into your ideas of religion and the afterlife, as I am speculating that it may create an ideal similiar to my own: that of a subjective, individual created afterlife. By this, I mean that I theorize our afterlife is defined by what we experience nad feel in life, where "Heaven" (or "Hell") is compiled by what our general life outlook and bias is - i.e., a more positive outlook leads to a more positive afterlife.

I'm rambling on my theory when I'm really more interested in yours... LOL... Well, cheers. ^^

[cyriljackal.livejournal.com]

Actually its nothing like that at all. I'll explain everything when I decide to post next.