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I'm up very very early today. why?
more nightmares
tonight or just now I was being chased by a mother bear, climbed up the outside railing of some stairs one handed just to try to get away even. bears are big, stood up even as high as i was and bit into my hand
i leaped off and practically floated as i jumped away but it still got my hand, i remembe the feeling still.
and i wake up and dont want to go to sleep again.
yet again.