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May. 29th, 2003 12:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cyriljackalSo I'm now 29. It hit me just yesterday, now that its after midnight. I'm for some reason already looking toward 30. You know I have all the stuff I've always said I wanted now at this point in my life.
I have a great boyfriend.
I live in an apartment, a decent one. (with said boyfriend.)
I have a job... one I'm not too afraid to say Fuck You to now at this point. I'm better than it. How the DM doles out the weak praise, or the pitiful threats... What fuckwits.
I'm far better and can care far more for almost anything else.
I'm happy finally.
Not to think I don't worry sometimes, but I really think I've found what I've always wanted, and I almost passed it up. Sometimes he likes to remind me. It's funny.
I pray some of the people I know accept something like what I have into their lives someday instead of chasing insanity. I've chased my insanity, till it drove me over a few edges. Every crash I thought I'd die. Some people who even read this might know how I died over them almost. I'd hedge to say most don't care. I'm glad to know that one does. Without any doubt one does and far as I can see never will stop.
I have the goddamdest best thing right now.
Me, Shane and Jonas our kitty.
Spending our evenings together.
Placidity.
Love ya.
I have a great boyfriend.
I live in an apartment, a decent one. (with said boyfriend.)
I have a job... one I'm not too afraid to say Fuck You to now at this point. I'm better than it. How the DM doles out the weak praise, or the pitiful threats... What fuckwits.
I'm far better and can care far more for almost anything else.
I'm happy finally.
Not to think I don't worry sometimes, but I really think I've found what I've always wanted, and I almost passed it up. Sometimes he likes to remind me. It's funny.
I pray some of the people I know accept something like what I have into their lives someday instead of chasing insanity. I've chased my insanity, till it drove me over a few edges. Every crash I thought I'd die. Some people who even read this might know how I died over them almost. I'd hedge to say most don't care. I'm glad to know that one does. Without any doubt one does and far as I can see never will stop.
I have the goddamdest best thing right now.
Me, Shane and Jonas our kitty.
Spending our evenings together.
Placidity.
Love ya.
