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Oct. 9th, 2002 05:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cyriljackalSo, I finally asked Shane why we weren't together. Basically he answered as I'd have thought. "You're still hung up on Yips, and, I'm 30." I told him I don't think the 30 thing mattered, but he au contraired. Ok, so maybe I do have a think for guys several years my junior. And at least he agreed there's nothing wrong with that. He knows basically everything about what I do. I don't hide anything from him, maybe fail to mention, but never hide. We have this weird relationship with each other. We can talk, and are close. I suppose its what 'real adults' are like. He understands my plight, as he's had a few younger boyfriends in his life including one who got pretty upset that Shane had let me sleep over a few times, and not him. He has this laid back approach to life that is hard for me to adopt. But at least he's here to talk to and tell me getting worked up over anything isn't really worth it over things that ultimately, don't matter.
Later that night I went over to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
yips_for_fun's place because he was feeling sick for the second day in a row at least, and as usual I wanted to see him. He was laying in bed on his cell phone, again as usual. He's such a popular guy. Seems everyone wants a piece of his time. And a piece. I sat and chatted with him until he began to look sleepy. "I don't want to fall asleep on you..." But I didn't care. I just wanted to be there, and help him rest if possible. He fell asleep with his hands on mine, and around 1:00 AM I pulled my hands free and after he woke up a few minutes, headed out the door.
I ended up talking withbanalheart, aka Remy for a while. He's yet another Yips admirer who I've come to know. He was all thrilled I talked dirty with him and went to bed happy. I don't really take 'cybering' too seriously but he seemed to. Hes about 20 from what I remember. I hate saying it, but when I was 20 I probably would have been just like him, if I were not so shy, and so in the closet.
I end my nights so late. I stayed up till 4 AM doing who knows what. I never remember. Probably staring at meaningless emails and watching mirc for any kind of interest and life, both of which it lacks at anywhere past 12:00.
Later that night I went over to
yips_for_fun's place because he was feeling sick for the second day in a row at least, and as usual I wanted to see him. He was laying in bed on his cell phone, again as usual. He's such a popular guy. Seems everyone wants a piece of his time. And a piece. I sat and chatted with him until he began to look sleepy. "I don't want to fall asleep on you..." But I didn't care. I just wanted to be there, and help him rest if possible. He fell asleep with his hands on mine, and around 1:00 AM I pulled my hands free and after he woke up a few minutes, headed out the door.I ended up talking with
banalheart, aka Remy for a while. He's yet another Yips admirer who I've come to know. He was all thrilled I talked dirty with him and went to bed happy. I don't really take 'cybering' too seriously but he seemed to. Hes about 20 from what I remember. I hate saying it, but when I was 20 I probably would have been just like him, if I were not so shy, and so in the closet.I end my nights so late. I stayed up till 4 AM doing who knows what. I never remember. Probably staring at meaningless emails and watching mirc for any kind of interest and life, both of which it lacks at anywhere past 12:00.
